AAAH! hummm.....that's better.

i seriously need to get out of this lazy mode. it really isn't helping me at all. i know if i rrrrrrrreally doing force myself to escape this it can ruin my life in terms of my scl work and me getting a job and supporting myself. especially if i ever intend to have a family in the future, which i know i want to happen. This lazy attitude just will not cut it. No wonder sloth is one of the deadliest sins, and with good reason too. I'd rather know that i trying in life, rather than not trying at all. Ok, Ok, i'm done moping about it, and i've identified that i have a problem, now i just need to find way and means to encorage myself to go about it. for one i know that i have to stop hanging around my boyfriend allll the time. We practically live together and we haven't even moved in together. if i'm not at his house he's at my house. seriously, he's like my bestest frend and all, and i really wudn't prefer anyone else to get attached to, but we both know that we have to stop spending soooomuch time together. 2. it'd be good to get involved in some activity that i have a drive or a passion for. Yeah, something that i was actually dedicated to. and i see where my relationship is dwindling, hey i'll just drag him along in whatever activity im into; which is exactly what he does with me when it comes to video games and other stuff with his frends. ok, ok.....i know it seems as though i have it all sorted out and shit rit now, but it's butting the first step forward to making a change is going to be the hard part. ................aaaaaaaaahhhh.....oh well.